postcard of a painting

2012-01-02T21:21:00.001+08:00

It's nice to finally celebrate new year with someone you care for, who cares for you back.
Thank you for everything :)

2011-10-01T08:31:00.001+08:00

I love Anuar Zain <3

2011-09-30T17:34:00.001+08:00

I LOVE BIG BANG THEORYYYYYYYYYYYY <3

2011-05-25T21:56:00.002+08:00

tests are coming soon, so are presentations. i'm really really worried for the coming practical exam i'll be taking next week. i've already memorised the names and positions and actions of muscles, but have yet to remember the names and location of the origin and insertion of the muscles :( so much to remember in so little time. plus the people in class are not exactly helping, being so hardworking and all. it's so scary. but insyaallah, i'll give my best and accept whatever results i get for the effort i put in.

a number of birthday celebrations are coming up, i'm looking forward to them! at least that'll be something to look forward to :) oh! plus there's this brazilian percussion performance thingy at marina barrage on saturday i can't wait for that i can't wait!!!! i've been interested in that kind of music since pretty long, it'll be great to see the performance first hand.

i can't wait for the weekends to come. finally two days where i can stay away from school :)

2011-05-06T22:01:00.002+08:00

The third week of school has already passed. Every single week is tiring. School ends so late, there's barely even time to meet up with friends. Even if there is, it'd be just over a short meal or something like that :(

I'm thankful I managed to pass through the week just fine. Met up with Ridzwan over dinner after school on Wednesday, in an attempt to celebrate his belated birthday. Things didn't exactly go according to plan but the night turned out well, syukur :)

And today, I had the most wonderful company of Mahira in the train back home! Wanted to meet hidayah too for dinner but she couldn't make it, so probably next week or something then. Gonna meet kak seri next weekend, Insyaallah.

I miss so many people. I have yet to catch a single match of the juniors. School timing is crazy laaaaaaaa I don't like it. It's friday night and I'm at home studying anatomy. What else is left to answer for? I have to be a mugger now.

2011-04-30T08:49:00.001+08:00

Like I'm not good enough

2011-04-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

It's been really long, I know. Just suddenly have the urge to type a lot. So basically I'm moving on to the next phase of life after JC education. I did fairly for the A's. Haven't heard from any of the local unis but I've already started school at NYP, physiotherapy. InsyaAllah I'll get a degree after 4 years.

School has been interesting, but tiring. Lessons start early and end late almost everyday. Normal schedule ends at 5 or 6pm. Worst thing is, I don't even stay near school. Takes me an hour just to get home. That takes me 2 hours plus back and forth to school. Tiring or what :/ Thank goodness I get to sit most of the time on the way to school.

Classmates are friendly and warm :)

I miss playing hockey, to be honest. But with the schedule that I have now, plus the competition for the top few players to get the degree, it's crazy. I hope this coming 4 years pass by quickly. On the other hand, the thought of work scares me. Knowing that I'd have to be responsible for the lives of the patients makes me doubt myself whether I'd be able to handle it or not. InsyaAllah the clinicals that I'll be going through over the coming 3 years will be of great help. I have to put in lots of work to do well, or at least good enough to maintain a safe grade.

I'm so sad. The time I have left for myself/family/friends/Ridzwan is so minimal already. No more going out more than once a week. It's already hard to find a single day to meet up with people. Hopefully after this is all settled, I'll get my social life back.

I must do sports on Saturday mornings!!!!!

I pray Allah strengthen me, with patience to go through each day.
I pray you stay by my side through all this no matter how much time we no longer have for each other. I need you, awak.

2010-10-31T22:39:00.000+08:00

Don't give up on me

2010-09-28T20:43:00.002+08:00

I really pray that my family and friends continue supporting me throughout this time. That's all I'm asking for. Erase off all the negative feelings and let's start on a positive note.

2010-08-20T23:50:00.002+08:00

You are my sunshine; my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You never know, dear, how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away

I remember how often I used to write these things a few years back. There are always little notes of encouragement that people randomly write. Just to make things seem a little better, and it always worked.

I'll have faith that Allah will give me strength to press on
Insyaallah

2010-07-05T08:05:00.001+08:00

Cause there really isn't nothing to feel proud of.

2010-05-22T23:27:00.002+08:00

I need to start knowing what I really live my life for. I need to start studying for a purpose, and most importantly to know where to go from there. I'm just studying for the sake of it and that makes it hard to motivate myself when I loose the momentum to study. I always tell myself that the people around me would help. But until when? I can't possibly rely on anyone particularly to set my mind right. It's me myself.

I'm just pissed at how school is, with what's happening in the class and all. I don't need all these to make my last year in school memorable for the negative reasons. I'm glad to have the close bunch but then again, who knows for sure how long these friendships would last? Knowing people for only two years is the same as barely knowing them at all.

I'm thankful for the friends that I have. I'm just sad that my hopes of having a close class is wayyyy off what is at present. There's no room for all that class thing anymore cause it's just a waste of time to even bother.

Spent my saturday out-of-the-ordinarily hah!
Morning, played squash with family at uncle's place. Then dad sent me to school to study with gerri. We studied, took breaks by playing tennis first, then hockey. The last time I really played on the pitch was during 3rd and 4th. Then went for guitar concert.

I wish school was nearer to home, I really do

2010-05-08T08:38:00.001+08:00

May the third was last monday, and I'm glad I successfully made that day special, with the help of so many people. Being 20 is still young :)

I'm an official mugger-to-be

2010-04-08T06:48:00.002+08:00

It's been an amazing journey altogether. We've gone through so much as a team, with all the accidents and injuries that have only made us much stronger. We've played our best and we've showed everyone we're capable. Though that might not be the best way to end off the season, it's still great! Cause we know we've made it through despite all the setbacks that makes us worried all the time about what's gonna happen next. We made it through.

I've learned a lot from this team, and how we stayed together through it all. That sometimes even though things may not go our way, deep inside we know we've given our best, and so we get up from our fall and stay strong for each other.

I'm proud of everyone. And I will always remember this season.

2010-03-17T22:08:00.004+08:00

I know you may think that certain things are just some small matter to not even bother about, but in actual fact, it matters a lot to me. Just how talking makes a huge different. It matters.

2010-03-06T07:17:00.001+08:00

A levels resulted was out yesterday. And it's just really scary how no matter how hard you study, you still can't be sure of what you're gonna get. Cause everything's just so unpredictable.

2010-02-25T22:13:00.002+08:00

Things haven't been going on so well but the thought of the end makes me happy. This month would be tough, so I'll just have to stay strong while facing it with the rest to make this journey a memorable one.

2010-01-26T14:13:00.008+08:00

I recieved a letter on the 21st

That was the sweetest thing :)

Classmates and teachers sang the birthday song for me in the cafe, then baby just suddenly appeared out of nowhere to surprise me. Xiao Zhou Niro Christie Gerri Baby made my birthday in school a nice one :)

Then came training, we had a friendly against Crescent. Things didn't go so well before and after. But since it was friday, there was team dinner as usual and the team surprised me sweetly at Mr Prata hehh though I saw the cake before it came to the table, it was still sweet :)

My family wanted to surprise me with a study table that I asked beforehand. I spoilt that surprise cause I saw photos of Hakim making the table when I wanted to see his prom photos :/ But it was sweet, that my dad actually carried the table up the stairs all by himself though it was too heavy for him. And Hakim turned the table from pieces of parts to a whole table by himself :)

Saturday was hell at first cause Mahira said she wanted to meet cause she had lots of problems bugging her. She didn't tell me what, though. At the same time, Hidayah kept texting me about her problems too. And my mood to be happy was shaken :/ They did a great job, actually :)

Met Mahira at West Coast first, walked around and talked her problems out until we found some shade. Then came the suprise when Hidayah appeared, the one who asked me out at first but in the end came. Hahah it was just really nice to spend the late noon + evening + night with them :) Went to my place after that for prayers and dinner. Our friendship could really withstand the test of time and I love it how we're still strong like this :)

Sunday morning, did my homework. Then left for madrasah. Met Ridzwan after that and brought him home to see my parents while I changed and everything. Had lunch, played Band Hero (& got himself addicted to it.) Spent pretty awhile there before we left for town to meet Christie Gerri Xiao Zhou and Baby for dinner. It was nice to see baby again. I'd be lying if I said everything's the same without her around. Hopefully our once a month thing would work :)

I just pray that may Allah would grant me strength and patience to face the obstacles in life. I'm thankful for the family that I've grown up with, and the friends I've made throughout my life. May this happiness last till my last breath. Amin.

2009-12-29T10:52:00.003+08:00

Cause I know there's something great to look forward to.

Till forever :)

2009-12-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

Take a good break and reflect on life.

2009-11-27T19:39:00.002+08:00

Today's Hari Raya Haji and most of your relative came over. some even slept over the night before and i'm sure you're having a blast right now =) Appreciate times like this. It'll brighten up your days in the future =))

"However good or bad you feel about your relationship, the person you are with at this moment is the "right" person, because he or she is the mirror of who you are inside." - Deepak Chopra

2009-11-22T22:58:00.003+08:00

I know that no matter how crazy life may be, the two of you would always be by my side :)

I love you both, always.

2009-11-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

Even the best falls down sometimes,
Even the stars refuse to shine

I know I'm not good enough in the eyes of many
But all I'm asking for is patience,
and I'll prove to everyone that I'm capable

Come back soon.

2009-10-25T12:13:00.003+08:00

Days that make life so worth it :)

2009-10-19T09:36:00.002+08:00

With sunsets, donuts and laughter as our company :)

2009-10-16T20:43:00.001+08:00

Uncertainty.

2009-10-10T07:18:00.002+08:00

Everything's gonna be alright :)

2009-08-27T20:49:00.002+08:00

All I wanna do, is grow old with you

How I wish that life would stay as how everything was in the past. How happy, free, easy and bright everyday was. I miss everyone. I especially miss you.

2009-07-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

I spent my best hour today, with you, finally :)

2009-07-17T19:44:00.002+08:00

"Even though I complain sometimes, it's because I'm the heart of a person, and people's hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don't deserve them, or that they'll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren't, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly."

"The fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity."

"When you are in love, things make even more sense."

Maktub
~The Alchemist

2009-07-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

It's a new chapter of life for us both, and I'm sure that with His guidance, we'll make it through just as well as how it's been all along. Patience, and 2 years would pass by faster than we ever thought it would be. It was great to hear you today, how things are a little better.

I'm always here, praying for the best :)

2009-07-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how nature works its wonders :)
Right next to you, I sit, watching a miracle happen. I saw a shooting star, and I couldn't stop smiling, with the comfort of love. And how the same clouds we see a second ago, changes into another beautiful thing the next second.

5 papers down, one more paper to go! :D

2009-06-17T22:34:00.002+08:00

Destiny is the bridge you build to the one you love.
I miss you, dear

2009-06-02T20:39:00.002+08:00

Life has been interesting!

It's the holidays now, and lessons have dragged longer than normal school time did. Hahah why am I not surprised, actually. Well there's 3 weeks to mug for the common test, and I know I've got a lot to catch up, especially physics :S It scares the shit out of me, yet I still insist on going out and spend so much time having fun this holiday. Furthermore, I'll be going overseas for a couple of days in the middle of the month. All the best to me!

But first and foremost, good luck to you for Friday, dear :) you've done this before, and I'm confident you could do it again this time round. I'll be there! :D

I won't be blogging for long unless I have the sudden urge to.
Bye!

2009-05-27T21:38:00.001+08:00

How the greatest of things could suddenly turn upside down. Don't you find this amazing? Yup, amazingly scary for sure.

2009-05-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

Icouldbehappier:/

2009-05-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

It's been a tiring week, with the submission of PIs, drafts after drafts just to produce something good for my teacher. I'm glad it's over now. But then again, it's still just the start of the whole PW thing :/ My group members are alright I should say! There's baby inside, so at least I'm great with that :)

Played like crap against AJ. A lot to learn and improve for next match! So anyway after the match, met the crew!! Wahh finally laaa. People started counting, and there were 9 heads altogether = all of us are present! Hahah how difficult it was to actually just meet up with everyone around la. It was really a great feeling all over again. I miss playing with them :/ It was great enough that we had the chance to meet up again!

Spent the night wonderfully! The best feeling to make up for how I felt previously during the day/match. Thank you, dear :)

Today's mother's day! And I remembered how last week, I felt so guilty cause I thought it was mother's day and I went out with love. So I actually wished my dearest mother Happy mother's day like, one week in advance Hahah! I went to orang kahwin with my parents just now, and going out again for dinner with the rest of the family later :)

Tomorrow's holiday, and I'll be mugging at home. Cause today, I'm really not in the study mode la :S I'm such a failure, why am I not surprised Hahah. Another day down before Wednesday comes!

2009-05-04T08:52:00.001+08:00

Ridzwan turned 19 on the 3rd of May, two days ago. And we celebrated it together! :D We went to have prata tissue (finally huh!), before making our way to the botanical gardens. I had a hard time getting the pizza orders on the phone cause the one at the receiver of the other end had no idea where Jacob Ballas gate was :/ Hahah so we went in and waited until the pizza man came! Wah it was the first time I ever tried Ritez pizza and it was delicious :D Especially the chicken laaaa Hahah nice!

We made our way to a shelter before we started our feast. Pigeons were all around, super frustrating. They'd always come in a whole big group, and aren't exactly afraid of us :S We hang around in the shelter a bit more before we went off. Walked our way all the way to the main entrance at town. Then took bus to Al Falah.

I've never really been to town on Sundays, and woah it was packed with people from all countries la! Hahah so anw we made our way to this blue building and went for k session! :D heheh it was so hilarious I promise. Ridzwan sang until his voice became serak after that. Hahah then after the few hours, we rushed off to Al Falah again, before he sent me home :)

It was really one of the sweetest days of my life. After so long huh :) I know I had a blast! Thank you so much for Sunday, dear.

Happy 19th, again! <3

2009-04-28T20:10:00.001+08:00

At least I have you to make me happy, everyday :)

2009-04-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

During the Good Friday weekend, my family together with 4 other cars, went to Kuantan for our holiday! Stayed at the hotel for 3 days 2 nights, eating so much, and playing games too. Played beach volleyball, a bit of tennis and a lot of tennis! Hahaha it was fun. It's been super long since we last went out as a whole huge group la. Finally, during that weekend, I was able to catch up on my sleep :)

Wednesday was a special day <3
And so was today! Love it love it love it!

There's training tomorrow. Monday's first match! :D

2009-03-29T14:02:00.002+08:00

It's been a tough and tiring week. Everday after school, I'll be too shagged and just fall asleep at the dining table, before even attempting to study. Trainings are getting more intense. I'm glad there isnt really much school work to be submitted.

Friday was amazing! We went Fort Canning to eat donuts ;) Hahah I was being a complete fool, but at least I ended my weekday and started off my weekends wonderfully. That's most important. Thank you, love :) Yesterday was super tiring. Had training, played 4x20min of halves, then went back home and slept through my evening. When I woke up, my cousins were around. Then we left for dinner. Loved their company, always. Got back home and I still felt tired, so I went straight to sleep Hahah! What a day.

Today started off pretty well! Got retarded on the phone just now. So what to do, it's time to study :S Good luck to me! :(

2009-03-20T15:11:00.005+08:00

I had an awesome time yesterday! Had training in the morning before I walked from Jacob Ballas gate all the way to the Swan Lake in botanical gardens to meet my loveliest class, 4S2 :) They were all sitting and talking non stop. I really missed the class so much, cause nothing now could match the feeling they gave me in crescent. We caught up on each other and everything, before we took soooooooo many photos like crazy!

Then it got super hot and everyone became sticky and all, so we decided to walk to Tanglin Mall macs, where everyone used to hang out before secondary school days ended. I caught up with Hazel there. Finally meet her again after so long :)

We still had a lot of time left, so we headed off to Crescent! No teachers were around, but we met Na!!! Then we went to the hall and played there. It was super fun, we played captain's ball at first, then dog and bone with funny things added in the game. There, I caught up with Sab! Can't wait to meet her again next month! :)

Most of them went off for dinner together but I was too tired by then, so I went home with shimin! I rant and rant and rant at her like how I used to since last time. We took 198 back, like we always did before! :)

I miss 4S2 a lot, and I'm really glad though many couldn't turn up, at least we managed to spend time together again after so long. I'm much happier now :)

Ps. I Love You <3

Suddenly surrounded by the loveliest girls :O :D

With Sab and Hazel! :D

Home :)

2009-03-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

MSA1 ended, screwed.
Team SAJC trip to Melaka, super fun!
Coming Soon, extremely scary :S
4S2 picnic tomorrow!!!!
Pizza on Saturday with love :)

2009-02-28T20:47:00.002+08:00

Slumdog Millionare was awesome! No wonder people could watch it countless of times. And so was Pasta Mania! Well I'm happy enough that my weekday ended nicely :)
Another week to go through before another Friday to look forward to!

2009-02-24T21:38:00.004+08:00

Life's a routine now. School, training, late dinner, stay up for homework, sleep. I look forward to Tuesdays; cause school ends early, Wednesdays; cause we're gonna use the new D for training! Fridays; cause I'll be happy with you after school :) I don't look forward to Saturdays, and Sundays are my finishuphomeworkandrevise day.

Well hey, at least there are Fridays to look forward to :D :D :D

2009-02-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

Another week in school ended. Everyday's pretty much the same, actually. Come school, meet the classmates, then attend lectures with them/another group of people. Then after school, there'd be trainings. Reach home, eat, study a bit, then sleep. Today was pretty interesting though. We celebrated friendship day today. And the best gift was brownies from ernie! Hahaha I bet it's cause the other day when she brought it to school, I got so happy I didn't wanna stop eating it. Ambik kau, one box of brownies for me! Then we decided to get each other helium balloons just for the sake of exchanging it Hahahah damn gay la.

Atiqah was damn sweet. During break after gp, she was like "Sya, you want flower?" And she got 2 gerberra flowers, and asked me to pick either yellow or pink. And I chose pink :O:O Hahaha omg damn interesting la. Atiqah's my new classmate and she already got me that! Hahaha nice la.

I had lunch with og3 after school today. It was nice to be with the bunch i'm familiar with in school again. But they were all so mean to me :( Oh well I just hope that at least a few would still continue talking to me even after school proper has started, since we've all parted to the different classes already.

Abang Izam and Kak Faizah getting married tomorrow. Hahahah it's like the biggest day for abang izam la cause it's his birthday tomorrow too!! Would be off to his place tmw after training to be a good cousin and help out. I'm excited! :)

2009-02-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

Today was a memorable day :) Firstly, I met ridzwan right after madrasah :O Then I accompanied him to donate blood :O at admiralty. He was so excited la, first timer! Hahaha trained to pr with him, and then on my way back, I fell asleep all the way to the other end of the world, boon lay. Crazy shit. So I took the train back to jurong, where I couldn't get pass the ezlink tapping thing cause of what? Overstay. Hahahah damn loser la.

I'm so drained, I wanna sleep early tonight. School starts tomorrow. And hopefully I'll get used to lectures and long hours in school. I'll hear my mum complaining about how she hasn't seen her daughter for many days again. Hear I come, school :(

2009-02-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

This is during one of our last mass dance practices as a kingdom! With Grace; my Shake It partner who only gets high when she dances with me, Jack; my dance partner for the tribal war dance we had to perform on stage, and Gary, my Bio friend who's the only one to laugh with me about things only we both know about HAHA best.

This is OG3 with Eunice!!!!!!!!! :D Hahaha this is like her favourite pose la. We took a different photo on another day, and yup, we did this pose also HAHA

The girls :D with Si Min, Serene and Rosanna missing

The guys :D with Wei Chao missing

Dinner at Macs after a really long day :D

2009-02-07T08:02:00.000+08:00

Orientation ended really greatly last night. It was total fun, really. Just making myself look like a fool on stage for forgetting the dance steps was totally worth it Hahah! Alright so I'll start from the beginning. I was in OG3, along with Grace, Raihan, Gary, Jack and many others. It obviously started out pretty awkwardly but all of us turned out to be an awesome bunch as a whole! Was in the kingdom Sequia, with Eunice as our OGL as well as kingdom head. It was pure games and cheering and dancing most of the time :D

But last night was really the best. Me and Jack had to learn the Sequia dance and perform it on stage with a few other people from the other OGs. We practiced like mad for the first mini performance in the hall, and totally screwed it up Hahaha but at the finale, it was awesome! Then we rushed back to join our OG3 and not miss any other parts of the finale.

Sat and cheered like crazy with Gary, Jack and Xiao Kang at the steps. Never cheered so woahly before la, at least since a very long time Hahaha! Then we danced to Beat It. I couldnt stop bouncing laaa. Hahahha and when Shake It came, Grace ran past everyone in the seating rows just to go and join me at the steps :O We then got too high so we went up on stage pulling Gary and all along but too sad, they said the stage cant hold all of us so we had to go down all over again Hahahah but yeah, I didn't want the dancing and cheering to stop. Shake It was my favourite :D

Lastly before we left the CC, we sang the school song, with our hands on each others shoulders. Hahaha though the guys next to me were those I barely talked to, it didn't even matter then. Cause we know we're all the same.

Then we left to the foyer to have our last debrief with Eunice. We took many kingdom photos before the OGLs asked us to go home Hahahah Then most of OG3 had dinner together. By then, we were all super hungry la. So yup we had Macs, then took train home with a group of them.

I'm glad my first 5 days of SA were really awesome :)

2009-01-25T12:58:00.001+08:00

On Friday, I met hidayah mahira zul and ashraf to IMM for grocery shopping for yesterday's picnic. Hahah it was fun cause the guys were so nonsense, and the things we were searching for were pretty difficult to get :S Then after everything, me and zul followed hidayah back with the stuffs and I headed home.

Went for training on Saturday morning at CCAB, then rushed back home to change and all, before going to hidayah's place with the noodles Hahah the makcik next to me kept turning and looking at me cause the noodle smell was strong :/ Didn't really do much at her place, cause everything was already prepared when I reached, so sorry! Then the 6 of us left for east coast.

We prepared the sandwiches while the two guys prepared the drinks. Then we just sat around and talked while waiting for more people to come. It was a lovely day. Though it got kinda cloudy near the end, it didn't rain!

Thank you guys so much for everything! :D

GAMBAR-GAMBAR!

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2009-01-23T10:45:00.001+08:00

At Marina Barrage with Hidayah and Mahira on 20th :)

At Underwater World with Ridzwan yesterday :)

2009-01-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was one of the sweetest days I ever had :) I met Hidayah at Marina and was actually dumb enough not to know where she was taking me. Hahh! She blindfolded me and made me look like a total fool who die die refuses to go up the escalator, and even worse, on the shuttle bus. I was so excited that I actually couldn't stop talking at all. And not only that, I didn't realise that my voice was damn loud la!! It was so embarrassing for the two of them, really. Oh talking about the two, I actually didn't know at all that Mahira was all along with us, until I opened my blindfold. She was so quiet la! And woah, she could actually not laugh out loudly despite me acting like a fool :S

There was one time, I got kinda bored waiting for the shuttle bus. I started singing some pramlee song. Malam bulan di pagar bintang. And I only knew that line of the song. Best. That was when I suddenly heard someone else's laughter. It was Mahira la. Hahaha but I wasn't bright enough, so I decided to just go with the flow! Hahaha

So they took me to Marina Barrage. It was so nice over there! The wind was woooaaahhh best. I wanna play kite next time ahhh Hahaha. So anw we had a mini picnic at the side :D Mahira made all the food, gosh damn nice! We had to shift after awhile cause of the water spray that caught us all by surprise. Like purposely want to get rid of us from the grass patch la. Poor Hidayah, she got wet.

After that, we went Marina square to solat and all, and had dinner there. We were all so tired already la. So after quite long (haha) we took the train home.

Man, I couldn't thank the two of you enough. But hey, thank you so much for the surprise! I truly cherish it. I love the two of you!! And hey, there's still Friday and Saturday (HAHA tak puas) ;D

2009-01-19T07:30:00.000+08:00

Well I kinda realised I havent been blogging properly for quite some time already. Lots of things happened, yup. Well after I got back from holiday, went out with ridzwan to the zoo on the last day of 08! At least I ended my 08 nicely :)
A few days later, went for Fuhua chalet at east coast. Thought it was just for awhile, I really enjoyed the company. It's really been way too long since we last met and really catch up and all.
Last Saturday, played the match against tpjc. Then that night didn't go too well but at least ridzwan was patient enough with me :)
On Monday the next week, got back O's results. And I'm contented with a 10, syukur alhamdulillah. It's after that when we gotta choose which school to get in that's the problem. I have no idea why, but I still feel confused :S
The following day, went to catch Ongbak 2 and bought birthday present for my lovely sister who just got married last month. On Wednesday, met up with a few people and went for sa rj open houses. That night, abg shamir brought us all to arab street to have dinner, also to celebrate kak ida's birthday. The smell of shisha was so overpowering but sweeeeet! One day, some day ;)
Thursday was a major loser day. Which is why I shan't elaborate. Friday, went out with ridzwan to bugis. Met kenneth at his workplace. Hahah finally got to see that guy and he looked so small :S hehh sorry. We walked around a lot more, before we headed off to plaza sing to see hazel at her workplace. It turned out that she was late so we just waited for her outside. She came, nervous and all. Really poor thing la! Hope it didn't go so bad at work. Passed her the present and she left for work, and we had dinner.

My Friday ended nicely :)
Thank you very much, a thousand times over and over again

2009-01-18T14:40:00.000+08:00

I suddenly feel like going wild wild wet :(

2009-01-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

Syukur alhamdulillah. I'm really really thankful to Allah for the results I got. And also to those who have supported me, thank you so much for everything. Wouldn't have been able to achieve these results without you people :)

2009-01-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

Today, I went for my first madrasah class in Darussalam. I was so mentally prepared to be the only new student there or something la. I already made friends with this girl called Dina, just to make myself not feel so much of a loner. It was when I was resting my eyes when I heard someone enter the room silently and hesitantly, then stopped moving. I opened my eyes, and I saw this person staring right into my face with a smile. And she went "EH HI SYAAA!!!" Hahahah to my wonderful surprise, it was Naaaaa :O HAHAHA I couldn't stop laughing cause I couldn't believe my eyes la. And so couldn't she. So we talked and everything, when a friend of hers came in, wearing uniform also. When I looked at her, it was Sabrina from AJ!! Hahahah who used to be in the same madrasah class as me in hasanah. What a surprising morning la! So yeah, I don't even need to try to make friends, they're already there! Hahaha nice la. Now I look forward to madrasah already :)

Yesterday, went out to town with ridzwan before having match against tpjc. We won. But I know I didn't play well. But no point saying without doing anything to improve right? Hahah so tmw morning, I'll go knock around at the soccer court. Plus, it'll help release my tension for 2pm tomorrow! Results are finally coming out, and there's nothing I could do but to pray for the best. Insyaallah :)

2009-01-07T14:00:00.000+08:00

2009 has been alright so far. Have been staying at home and doing chores. Other than that, there's trainings to keep me fit! Under 21 is coming, and I'm looking forward to it. It's been pretty long since I've played matches :/

Anyway today went well until an hour back. I can't believe that I actually fell into the drain. And I wasn't even trying to run away from anyone or rush for anything la! Hahahah and my little sister just had to laugh straight into my face. Thanks a lot la. That drain was soooo deep, and it wasn't even covered by any metal thing :(((

2008-12-31T21:28:00.001+08:00

It's been a blissful year, and Insyaallah, 2009 would be an even better year. I'll really pray for the best of what would come. I learnt so many new things over this beautiful 2008. My friendship with people have been tested, and I'm grateful I still have my amazing bunch of friends I could depend on all the time. Some have disappeared, but it's alright. I know I cherish all the past memories, and I'll keep them with me all my life. I'm really thankful to have my loved one who could always make me smile with my cheeks pumped up to the top. You're my favourite :) But most of all, I could never have greater support than that from my family. I couldn't have gone through what I did without them. Thank you Allah, for blessing me with such wonderful people around me. Insyaallah with them, 2009 won't be that bad afterall.

2008-12-28T14:29:00.000+08:00

I'm just glad I'm back home now

2008-12-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

Kak Ida got married, and I'm rrrrreeeeeeeeeaaaaalllllyyyyyyyy happy for her :D It's been tiring going back and forth, but worth it. Every second looking at her face, it's really pure joy. Hehh I love my sister. And now she's a wife, and she has a husband! Hahaha nice la

I'll be off tonight. Will get back either on the 25th or 26th. Insyaallah I'll have a safe trip there, and also on the way back!

And I still miss you, I always do

2008-12-13T03:09:00.000+08:00

I miss you

2008-12-04T13:44:00.000+08:00

This is Raihan, my pri 1 and 2 bestfriend, before she shifted to Hougang. Haven't met her since then, but finally today was the day. All the letters, phone calls and texts, they're all worth it. It's just amazing how we could still get along well after years apart. Hahah I'm still kinda shocked till now. Well then that's my today. Almost an entire day catching up with my long lost friend, Raihan. I'm happy enough :)

Will be looking forward to Saturday for training, then bbq at night! Will be fasting on Sunday, then Monday's hari raya haji. Thursday, sister's friends coming over for some fun ;) Saturday and Sunday would be Kak Ida's very big days!! Then holiday would be from Sunday to the 25th, I think.

29th would be zoo :) Hahah just thinking about it makes me all excited already. I miss you I miss you I miss you. I can't wait for this week to end! Then it's freedom for you. Finally :)

2008-11-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

Guess I'll just have to wait till winter ends before everything goes back to normal, hopefully. I miss everyone. I miss hidayah mahira fatin jane tasneem sarah nat bala juani jo huijun hazel joanne shimin sab twins luye peilin winzu shafiq zul jumali & so many more. Above all, I miss you.

2008-11-25T15:48:00.000+08:00

Today was definitely a memorable day. Mahira and I celebrated Hidayah's birthday in advance. The surprise was a success! So was the blindfolding and the stripping part ;) Hehe there's so many things to say, but words just really couldn't describe how we felt just now. I got bullied by the two of them. Gang up and laugh at all the silly things I did. But oh well, the time spent together after so long was definitely all I could ask for today. It's been great, really great. All the excitement and everything, it totally paid off ;)

I love you, the both of you
Happy sweet 16th, Hidayah!!!! :D

2008-11-23T02:34:00.001+08:00

That's Tabitha in the pool at the twins' party

The back row, happy people. Oh man, our "Eh Eh Oh Oh Ya!"

With the crew! But Juani's missing. She's in US on holiday :O :(

These are the people who always make speaking about old times wonderful :D

2008-11-23T02:34:00.000+08:00

A lot of things happened since the last day of O's. I've been basically having a lot of fun! Hahah that's the greatest joy anyone could feel once another major exam is done. Rejoice :D

Well firstly, had class party on the 14th night. Went to the twins' for dinner. It was nice! Some people even got wet after being thrown into the pool, Hahh! Then the next day, went to get prom dress with Kak Ida, before meeting up with a Turkey friend of hers. Was the first time going around Singapore feeling soooo patriotic! It was fun, actually :D Then went for organ, before having a wonderful dinner with my loved one ;) That night was awesome, it really was.

Then 17th came, and it was prom (and Fad's birthday!!). The food was alright, I guess, before people started walking around to tables, taking photos and all. Being with mates during the dance made the whole night an even more memorable one :D Then 18th, I had no plans. So I slept throughout the entire afternoon!!! Woah how great is that, tell me. 19th was awesome! Went cycling with primary school mates. Got to catch up with Cikgu, Zul, Jumali, Hidayah, Fatin and Aprilia. Nice (: On the 20th and 21st, had farewell chalet at Aloha Loyang with team. The bbq food was nice! Spent the entire night and early morning by the pool next to the sea. Coooooold! :D

Yesterday night was spent with my loved one. Had dinner at checkpoint. Before enjoying the rest of the night at reservoir. It was lovely :) :) :) :) :) Anyway soon, I'll be heading to IMM and meet Mahira for the good of another loved one, hehh. Then will head off for organ, and spend my night at home with family.

24th would be a special day with 2 other people :) 25th would be going for a briefing before work starts. Damn it, I'm super excited for work! Will be working from 28th nov to 6 dec. Nice :)

Awhile later, some person would be going away from 11th to 15th. What a date, huh. Kak Ida's getting married on the 13th :D :D :D :D Then, I'll be away from 14th to 25th. After that, would be heading off for zoo with my loved one.

So many things were done, and many more things to be done. I'm excited for everything! Insyaallah, things would work out as planned.

Now this is for real,
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

2008-11-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Syukur. Yesterday marked the end of O's, the starting of a new life with new things to discover. It's weird to feel like there's nothing left to study for once we reach home. There's nothing left to worry about, cause we already gave all we could. Now we just have to wait for January to come, huh.

Went Nat's place yesterday with the crew for movie marathon. We ate, laughed and ate some more. Hahah it was really fun, finally being with them again. Then we left, and I managed to catch Madagascar 2. Hehh it really made me laugh the entire time! Nice, totally destressed myself the entire day. Thank you :)

Today, will be going for training, before going for class party at the twins'. Ahhh I hope it's gonna be really great! Oh, and prom's on Monday. I'm not even ready for it. Hahah nice la. Then Wednesday would be out with primary school mates & cikgu :D Thursday would be farewell! Hahah I'm so excited for everything now

But oh wells, like Joanne stated in her organizer, "Rejoice!"

2008-11-10T12:06:00.000+08:00

I've been spending my days with Hidayah. Oh man I love her a lot, I swear. Spent almost my entire Saturday with her :D Then at night, I smiled and sang and laughed and cheered and screamed my heart out, cause a man stole my heart ;) Then today, spent the morning with family to the zoo! Can you imagine. I haven't even ended my o's. Go and die la. I had the greatest time of my life, and that's the best I could ever ask for. Now I'll get down to business. 2 more days to go before freedom! Okay, I miss a lot of people. 13 Nov :D

2008-11-04T15:08:00.000+08:00

I want to make you happy, I really do

2008-11-01T11:22:00.000+08:00

I've got to say this
BIO PAPER TWO IS FINALLY OVER!!!!!
Hahaha jump for joy la, really

Anyway I guess a lot of things have happened in the midst of this o's. Syukur, though at times it may be troubling me a little, at least things have all worked out fine :)

Just a little more and it'll all be over! A lot of papers down, only 5 more to go!! FIVE :D

2008-10-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

Today was fruitful, syukur (: Hopefully everything goes well during this period of one month. Plus there'll be a major thing taking place in the midst of it. May it goes according to what's planned. Insyaallah.

All the best for everyone!
It's the time we've been waiting for all these while. The time is here :O :D

2008-10-13T06:50:00.000+08:00

For you (:

2008-10-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

I couldn't thank you enough. Cause yes, you guys brought so much more joy in my life. I'm happy :)

2008-09-27T14:09:00.000+08:00

Damn it ):

2008-09-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

Career day was interesting, I should say. Well maybe the dressing up part only ah. Cause the talks that they had were kinda boring, sorry. Anyway it was good looking at people dress up so formally.

Anyway went Geylang again last night. I realise that people only come after maghrib. So yeah, when we reached, it was still super empty. Well I know I had a great time destressing myself. That was good enough :)

So this morning I went for qiam. Nice la, first time. Think shall go for it again tonight, if everything goes to plan. Will be leaving for Johor soon! Well then, I'll be off to study now. Gotta get back to business. Crazy exams. I can't wait for it to be over, really can't.

The last stretch now, for both Ramadhan and O's. I'll make the best out of what's left of time.

2008-09-16T13:06:00.000+08:00

Look how gorgeous the moon is :)

2008-09-08T11:44:00.000+08:00

You've brought joy into my life. Syukur, cause even till now, you're still doing that. Thank you, really. Thank you for everything (:

2008-09-03T11:42:00.000+08:00

Met up with Hidayah to study in the morning with her cousin. Her cousin's so motivated to study, I cannot stand it la. Went masjid for zohor before I had the best socks shopping time. Haha seriously. The socks sold were so pretty I had to get them.

So that's my today. Of course I enjoyed it, cause I spent it with 2 more people I love. Ahhhh I'm happy happy happy!

2008-08-31T13:17:00.000+08:00

Papers this week were shit. I hope this holiday gets me back to the right gear. No more distractions, I promise.

2008-08-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

Look into your heart and you'll find love, love, love, love

I promised myself that I won't let anything distract me for prelims. Whatever's happening now, I'll just take it as another challenge I need to overcome to succeed. I just really hope it won't go on for too long. What to do, no life's perfect. You can't be happy all the time.

On a high note, I'm glad my classmates are really entertaining. Either that, or I'm just too easily amused even by the slightest funny thing Hahah. And I managed to catch up with an old friend yesterday! Plus, I got to see another friend twice this week already :D

Tomorrow, I'll be going johor with abang's family for dinner, I think
That's it. I'm mugging.

2008-08-22T12:28:00.000+08:00

Even the best falls down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I, collide

:)

2008-08-16T12:09:00.000+08:00

Today started off damn well, cause I had a good morning run with Tasneem (: wah felt damn fresh and high for mass dance ah. School day was long and tiring. But I became high again after school, cause I finally went town again, after damn freaking long. Went to eat with Jesline, that amusing person :D Walked till we found the bus stop that had both our buses. So I took bus home :O Record, 1hr 10min journey. Not so bad ah, since I did manage to sit even though it's a single decked, packed, bus.

Tomorrow, will be watching movie with Mahira before rushing off for organ, as per normal. Oh wells. At least I get to distress for the last time before prelims come. Well done.

Hey you, please lighten up (:

2008-08-12T11:59:00.000+08:00

I want to take that freaking cool thing at clarke quay, bungee jump, and jump out from a plane.

2008-08-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

One month to wait before the next one :D

2008-07-28T11:36:00.000+08:00

Racial harmony day was a blast (:

No school tomorrow. I miss Hidayah, and hopefully we'll be meeting. Yessar something to look forward to, finally

2008-07-19T11:41:00.000+08:00

Damn, I feel like I'm distancing myself from a lot of people whom I used to be close to last time. This feeling sucks. But I'm glad that I managed to talked to Hidayah the night before yesterday. And I got to see Irah today, after so long :D Plus I kinda got to catch with Nasuha (more like the other way round, actually) in the bus home one day. Well at least there's something to be happy about!

Think I won't be updating this blog for quite some time (I hope). Life has been more fun, I should say. Thanks to my entertaining classmates who can just make me high anytime. Seriously, I can't not smile a single day. They just won't let me, Haha Too bad la, even if you'd like to call it childish, we're proud of it (:

"EH-EH-OH-OH-YAA!"
Funny la. Cracks me up all the time :D

I realised that I can't sit next to Jesline. In the library while waiting for chem remedial to start, I didn't even flip a single page of chem textbook, cause we were too amused by each other! And during bio today, I can't pay attention in class cause of her. AC ah you, aircon (HAHAH)

I haven't said this for a few days already.
So here I go
I LOVE YOU, HAZEL :D

2008-06-29T19:51:00.001+08:00

Week's been tiring, I should say. But there were two days when I left classroom immediately after the bell rang, even before the teacher leave the class! Hahahah the feeling was nice, I tell you.

I love school now, since I can see partner everyday and confess our love for each other. And just smile back at her when she calls my name and simple smiles. Okay this just doesn't sound right.

I enjoyed my Saturday very much (:
Thank you thank you thank you thank you

2008-06-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

Ahh both yesterday and today was awesome (: I love the company. I'm glad you're back. Thank you (:

2008-06-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was great (: Had lunch with team. It felt like a reunion, after damn long. Man, I miss trainings already. After lunch, had a good laughing time at the rooftop. Haha crew never fails to make me laugh non-stop. But man, Johanna missed it. She only came back last night. Damn.

I love you. I'll always do. Cause best friend, I could never find another person to replace you. It's so amazing how we can just sit down and talk about anything and everything under the sun. I feel best around you, I can't deny that. Thank you for everything, love (:

It's amazing how life works. One moment, you feel as if the whole world crashed on you cause of something you thought you've achieved, yet you didn't. Then a few days later, you receive a phone call that gives you hope for the better. I'm really praying for things to go well, really. I really don't wanna let myself, my parents, down.

2008-06-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was wonderful (: Met up with Hidayah in the library to study. Then I received a bad news, so I lost the drive to study already. I wanted to go out badly. So we started calling people up. In the end, we met Fatin and Zul at Bugis. We went for lunch at Zamzam.

Ahh we were talking like no one's business ah. Some more Zul is super funny, just by looking at his facial expressions la. I haven't laughed like that since so long la, it was nice! We were all reminiscing the wonderful days back then. Hahah like how people used to make others cry. Omg funny la. I didn't realise that we're talking so loudly, until a person in the table near us shh us. Wth ah please.

Then left for masjid sultan, before we walked zul back to bugis station for his training. Then we went bugis junction and walked around. Ahh I'm going to shop one day, really. I really can't wait any longer. Oh while waiting for Fatin in the toilet, we bumped into Fadilah. Like funny right. We were all just talking about everyone, including her. Haha we were totally stunned that we didn't know what to say to her, seriously. Hahah

After we walked around some more, then left the place. At Jurong, Hidayah was suddenly "Ehh Shafiq!!" and she ran away from me. Hahaha I swear I was damn happy when I saw him ahhh. Like wth, yesterday was really wonderful. Nice!

Today, will be having lunch with hockey mates. Ahh another wonderful day to look forward to :D Tomorrow, I think Hidayah will be coming over to study. Now that's another something to look forward to too!

Well I'm glad I ended my day with a phone call I've been waiting for since 6 days ago. Hahahah I'm damn happy you're back, safe and gay ;) Friday/Saturday/Sunday with you with you with you with you with you Hahahah I'm gonna be high, I better be

2008-06-16T12:25:00.000+08:00

You don't know how much I'm waiting for you to get back tomorrow ):

2008-06-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was pure joy, I swear. Went out with bestfriend to IMM (of all places, but yes). Had to get stuffs for other people there. So I got kinda tired of walking around without getting anything else, and decided to go to the open space there. Ahh it was such a nice place to take photos (after the mats left & without people staring at us). I had a great time catching up with her, really :D

We wanted to leave the place, when she decided to come over to my place! And so she did (after so long). Went home to pray first, then left for the reservoir :D Ahh the most romantic place that's so close to home, to heart. Hahahah Nice la. Like finally I'm going to the reservoir with a different person ;) Man, the sunset was gorgeous. The wind was blowing into our faces. It was so calming and blissful, really. Plus, there was this granpa and his graddaughter close to us. I can't stop taking photos of them. Just look at the photo above with the orange sky. Ahhh nice!

Hidayah stayed for dinner. Then dad sent her home after sending mum to work. It was really so wonderful to have her company almost the entire half of the day. Cause I know that whatever happens, she's always there for me (:

I love you, will always do. Cause you're the bestest friend anyone could ever replace. Thank you a thousand times over and over again for yesterday!

2008-06-11T13:03:00.000+08:00

For the love of the bottle ;)
Ahh you make me happy, I swear

Will be looking forward to the 16th :D

I had a great time today, catching up with kak seri. Thank you very much for today, really. You don't know how much it means to me, cause it really means a lot to me. I love you more everyday! :D

2008-06-07T03:23:00.000+08:00

Fareed tagged me :O
Here goes!

01. At which age do you want to get married.
-25. Haha confident

02. Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriends/boyfriends?
-Friends, of course

03.Who is/are the person/people you trust most?
-Family, Hidayah, Mahira, Ridzwan, hockey mates

04.Do you think you have enough confidence?
- Enough? Yes I guess (see the confidence? Hah!)

05.What would you do if you see someone abusing an innocent animal?
-I'll shout for help

06.Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?
- Yes I do

07.What is your goal for this year?
-Do well in O's, enjoy life the way it is

08.Do you believe in Luck?
-Yes I do, cause sometimes that's all you can depend on

09.Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
-Go and die. Of course not!

10.What feeling do you love the most?
-When I'm gay and confused. Hahaha wth

11.If one day your bestfriend and boyfriend quarrel, who will you side with?
- Neither, cause I won't wanna loose both

12.List out 5 of your bestfriends.
-Hidayah, Ridzwan, Mahira, hockey mates

13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-Yes, cause every friendship teaches something new in life. They make me stronger.

14.Do you like to hangout with friends?
-Of course la what the hell, especially with crew ;)

15.What/who do you think is/are the most important in your life?
- Family, friends

16.If you were on a ship, your mother and your boyfriend/girlfriend(been together for 2 years) were knocked out of the ship you only have one life float, who would you throw it to?
-Mother, cause I love her much more than anyone else

17.If your girlfriend/boyfriend were to two-time you, what would you do?
-Nope, he would never do that

18.If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
-I'm happy with the way things are put in place right now, really (:

19.Have you ever felt the true meaning of love?
- I'm not married yet, thank you

20. Who do I miss right now?
- My mother and sister. I've not admired their faces for days already.

I've not done things like this in ages! Thank, psycho (:
Anyway bumped into Kenneth yesterday. It was nice catching up with him, after so long.

You're every song,
and I sing along
Cause you're my everything
(:

2008-06-02T07:25:00.000+08:00

I had a blast today :D Go-karting in the morning with siblings was awesome! And look, we were all in red, accidentally :O Talking about that, I really wanna watch the Singapore match tomorrow at the National Stadium. Man, we were in red, and some more there was this man who was blowing a whistle like how it's normally heard in the stadium. Shit la. I miss watching live soccer, though that happened only once. Hahah :/

There's school tomorrow till 12. Then, will be going for trials at nj. Hopefully it all goes well. When the academic test comes, I really hope I won't let myself down.

I know it's weird to say this since you're only away for like, 2 days? But I really miss you. I really do.

2008-05-27T14:11:00.000+08:00

Took Malay O's today. For now, I guess we have to learn to put what's done behind us, and just keep working hard for the rest of the components left. After paper, I had a great time with 5 of my 8 friends. We had lunch, then slacked one corner (haha), bowling, tried to slack one corner again, and moaned over our lifes at the open space.

Thank you for Friday & Saturday (:

2008-05-21T08:28:00.000+08:00

Things have been okay lately. Thursday, I sent a friend home :O Friday, went home straight from school. Saturday morning went Johor with Mama Abah and Kak Ida, then went Gombak to watch Hakim run. Nyai came at night, and we (nyai mama kak ida & I) went to watch P Ramlee The Musical. Nice la that one! The people acting were damn good la. Their voices were powerful! But I slept through some parts la, wth :/ Went home and slept all the way. Sunday morning had madrasah oral, then stayed at home throughout the rest of the day, and touched a little bit on Malay. Monday was Vesak Day. Mama wanted to go out, so we (mama abah hakim yana & I) went to Wild Wild Wet :D Hahah I've never touched water in ages :O It was fun being a kid again, with Hakim and Yana. Nice :D After playing, we met Nyai Cik Lah Abg An & Fahmi, and we headed off for lunch at some Korean place in the building next door. Left the place with a full stomach, headed home straight. The moment I reached home, the sofa started calling me. Slept. Woke up, and Cik Lah and the boys were already there. At night, I completed my Malay homework.

Malay O's is this coming Monday.
I'm gonna give my all to make you proud, I will.

It's amazing, don't you think, how life works. How difficulties are made to test your strength, to hold your head high in times of pain. I'm glad you're blessed with strength and courage to guide you through your difficult times now.
Insyaallah

2008-05-12T13:34:00.000+08:00

Thank You, for Friday and Saturday (:

2008-05-04T05:29:00.000+08:00

Half of today already passed, and I truly cherish all the time we spared talking :D May you be blessed with good health, dimurahkan rezeki, good future, and happiness that'll hold on to you throughout your entire lifetime. And you still have me :D

Happy 18th Birthday! :D

2008-04-27T11:49:00.000+08:00

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.
Tension of opposites?
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."
Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
"A wrestling match." He laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way."
So which side wins, I ask.
"Which side wins?"
He smiled at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

"Love wins. Love always wins."